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i'm bored.

2 // cmnt

[9.12.04 @ 12:00am]
Stolen from Miss Stacey. Thanks, Dollface. ;]

1. What is your first name? Michelle.
2. What is your middle name? Lynn.
3. What is your last name? Somskjfhgkfdlhgks.
4. What grade are you in? 10th.
5. What school do you go to? St Hubert.
6. What are your parents names? Michelle and Jim.
7. What color is your hair? Black.
8. What color are your eyes? Hazel.
9. Whens your birthday? October, 24th.
10.Whats your height? 5'5"
11.How much do you weigh? 110.

12. Whats your favorite song? They change a lot. but for right now. i have two.
Throwdown - "Raise Your Fist." & It Dies Today - "Freak Gasoline Fight Accident."
13. Whats your favorite band? too many..
14. Whats your favorite food? Italian. [pasta and such.]
15. Whats your favorite drink? water & iced tea.
16. Whats your favorite book? a clockwork orange, annie's baby, dark and deadly pool.
17. Whats your favorite movie? Pulp Fiction, Party Monster, a Clockwork Orange, the Evil Dead, Drop Dead Fred, ect..
18. Whats your favorite tv show? Pretty Much Anything on Adultswim. Well, Almost.
19. Whats your favorite month? August.
20. Whats your favorite day of the week? Wednesday.
21. Whats your favorite holiday? Christmas.
22. Whats your favorite sport? Track.
23. Whats your favorite thing to do? Listen to Music, Go to Shows, Hang Out With Friends.
24. Whats your favorite subject? English.
25. Whos your favorite teacher? None. But I Used to Have the Hugest Crush on My 7th Grade Teacher. Mr. Haws. He was Sexy.

CHOOSE (What do you like better)
26. Cake or Cookies? Cookies.
27. Pop or Juice? Juice.
28. Phone or Person? Person.
29. Science or Math? Science.
30. 1 Best friend or A bunch of friends? One Best Friend.
31. Being Close with your family or friends? Friends.
32. Funny or Serious? Funny.
33. Hot or Cold? Cold.
32. Sun or Snow? Snow.
33. Sandles or Sneakers? Sneakers.
34. Apartment or House? House.
35. Dog or Cat? Cat.
36. Singing or Dancing? Hardcore Dancing. ahah.
37. Jello or Pudding? Pudding.

38. Where do you want to live? California.
39. Where do you want to go to College: California.
40. Where do you want to get married? On a Beach, As the Sun Sets.
43. Where do you want to go for vacation? California.
44. Where do you want to meet your husband/wife? Doesn't Matter.
45. Where is your favorite place in the world? Being with Joe♥.

46. Bungee Jump? Yes.
47. Sky Dive? No.
48. Fly on a plane? Yes. I Already Have.
49. Eat road kill? Wow, No.
50. Kill someone? Depends on Who it is.
51. Gamble? Yes.
52. Make a fool out of your self? I Already do. All the Time.
53. Tell someone you had a crush on them? Yes.
54. Not talk for a day? I Think I Could.
55. Go Skinny dipping? I Have Already.
56. Talk to yourself in public? Sure.
57. Steal? If I Had to.

58. Who would you want to go to heaven with you? Joe♥.
59. What would you take with you? Clothes. hahah.
60. Who would be the last person you would want to say something to? All of My Friends and Family.
61. Who would you like to talk to when you get to heaven? My Great Grandfather, and My Old Cat. :( Amos..
62. What would be the first thing you eat when you get to heaven? Pizza Rolls. I Love Those Things.

63. If you could only choose 2 people to be with you, who would it be? Joe. and John Pettibone. Oh My. That Would be Heaven.♥.
64. Would you write help in the sand to try to get out? No. Well, Only if we Didn't Have Supplies or Something. Because with Those Two.. Oh Man.. I Would Never Want to Leave.
65. Would you help build shelter? Of Course.
64. Would you kill an animal for food? No.
65. Would you be relax or panic? John and Joe? Relaxed. For Sure.
66. Would you want to be rescued? Sooner or Later.
67. Do you think it would be cool to be stranded? Yes. But Only with Them.
68. How would you like to ended up stranded?(ex. boat, plane etc.) Boat.
69. IF you could only bring one thing what would it be? Food?

70. Loudest: Alexis.
71. Quietest: Jill.
72. Funnest: Alexis.
73. Caring: Joe, Kristi, and Katie.
74. Athletic: None of Us. aha.
75. Slowest reacting: Me. ahah.
76. Fastest reacting: Uh?
77. Short tempered: Kelly.
78. Biggest Flirt: Nick.
79. Best Smile: Joe.
80: Funniest: Alexis, and Bill.
81. Weirdest: Alexis.
82. Crazyiest: Alexis. wow.
83. Shyest: Joe, and Dave.
84. Most Talkative: Alexis.
85. Understanding: Joe, Kristi, and Stacey.
86. Talented: Joe, and Alexis.
87. Outgoing: Alexis, and Kristi.
88. Annoying: Kristi.
89. Honest: Katie.
90. Trustworthy: Joe, and Katie.
91. Boy/Girl crazy: Nick.

WHO ( of your friends)
92. Who have you known the longest? Alexis.
93. Who knows the most about you? Joe, and Katie.
94. Who can cheer you up? Joe, and Alexis.
95. Who do you talk to most on the phone with? Joe.
96. Who do you go to the movies the most with? Nick.
97. Who do you talk to the most in school? Kristi.
98. Who do you have the most sleepovers with? Kristi.
99. Who comes to your house the most? aha. Joe. All the Way.
100. Whos house do you go to the most? Joe's, or Kristi's.
101. Who tells you the most? Kristi.

102. To become famous? none. haha.
103. To get married? All of Us?
104. To work at a fast food resturant? Katie. ahah.
105. To go to Harvard? Stacey.
106. Never get married? Jill.
107. To become an atlete? Jill.
108. To have the most kids? Nick.
109. To never have kids? Me.
110. To become a rockstar? Me. aha, Ohh yeah.. just kidding.
111. To become a model? uhh..
112. To skydive? Katie.
113. To become an astronaught? Mike.
114. To be on Survior? Nick.
115. To travel the world? Kristi.
116. To become a Billionaire? Zack.
117. To not go to Prom? Bill.
118. To break the rules? Um.
119. Follow the rules? Stacey.

120. What do you care most about in your life? Joe, and My Friends.
121. Whats one thing you want to have done in your life be for you die? uhh.. not sure.
122. If you won a million dollars what would you spend it on? a House, and Clothes.
123. Have you ever slept walked? Yes.
124. Have you ever snoored? I Don't Think So.
125. Have you ever talked in your sleep? Yes. lol.
126. Would you ever eat a bug? No. Never. Ew.
127. Have you ever kept your new years resolution? No.
128. Have you ever laughed so hard your drink came out of your nose? Yes.
129. Have you ever played dress up? Yes.
130. Have you ever been on stage? Yes.
131. Have you ever snuck out or your house? No, I'm Not Rebellious Enough.
132. Have you ever sawm in the rain? Uh. I Danced in the Rain?
133. Do you daydream? Yes, a Little too Much.
134. Do you like the internet? Yes, What a Wonderul Invention.
135. Whats your favorite color? Purple.
136. Do you like surveys? No.
137. Would you ever make your own survey? No.
138. If you said yes make one then: ..
139. Say something nice about the person who sent this to you: Stacey is odd.
140. Whos your best friends: uh. yeah.
141. What do you like about them: they're fun.
142. Any last words: good bye.
4 // cmnt

On Broken Wings = Pure Sex.♥. [9.10.04 @ 4:30pm]
[ mood | calm ]

haha. i hate school. so much.
some black dude tried to holler today.
his exact words: "yo shortie, can i holla?"
my exact words: "no."
haha. and then i walked away.
ooh. the fun.

i'm so happy it's friday.
i hate all of my teachers, except two.
my english teacher.. ooh.. he makes me want to kill myself, or someone.
my world history teacher, she made a speech today, saying the words "i don't care." at the end of everything.
i take it, she doesn't really care about much of that school.

i only like my biology and theology teacher.
they're fun. and nice ladies. ;D

i was loading the dishwasher earlier, and a glass broke and it cut my arm.
it was bleeding a lot, and it hurt. ;[ it's all gross now. oh well, i'll live.
i plan on having lots 'o fun this weekend. considering this week of school is going to be HELL.

oh well. i'm going now.


1 // cmnt

Oh God. Kill Me Now. [9.8.04 @ 11:28am]
[ mood | sore ]

school starts tomorrow.
and i don't want to go back.

good bye summer.

oh and...
yesterday was the worst day.
ever. :'[

i give up.


If it Makes You, I Don't Want to, See Your Face When You Feel Not Alive. [9.7.04 @ 7:17am]
[ mood | sleepy ]

yeah, so, i'm getting my haircut today.
i'm... so nervous. it's going to look retarded on me.
oh well.. *will post pics later*

good bye.


2 // cmnt

This Love Will Tear You Apart. <3 [9.3.04 @ 3:56pm]
[ mood | blah ]

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I Miss You. I Miss You So Far. And the Collision of Your Kiss that Made it So Hard. [8.31.04 @ 9:56pm]
[ mood | geeky ]

Hello Kids. What`s up? arrgghh. My allergies suck. My eyes are watery and very very itchy. i hate it, i just want to rip my eye balls out, so they no longer itch. ha. that`s always fun.

well, today, i didn`t do anything. i didn`t see Joe as planned, due to my sister making a surprise visit. we watched pee wee herman. [ahah. - old school.] and, it was fun, i guess. considering i see her like once every two months. shwaaa. i`m really bored right now. and there`s no one on that i feel like talking to. crap. i talked to joe on the phone for almost three hours today. haha. we were so bored, but, it`s okay. it was fun, ♥. I think i`m seeing Joe tomorrow, i was supposed to get new uniforms for school. but, i don`t think that`s happening? oh well. i`ll go next Wednesday. maybe. or sometime, hopefully.

stacey was telling me about her date today, and it sounded like they had fun. [love ya, dollface!]
they went into the photobooth and took pictures. i want to do stuff like that. ]; it`s so cute.
maybe me and joe should go somewhere, instead of sitting in my house all day and doing nothing.
hmm.. ??

maybe, i`ll ask him if he wants to go to the mall tomorrow, or something. i`m so bored with my life right now! blah.
it`s the same shit, every day. but, i guess i can`t expect much, considering i`m only fourteen.
oh well, i can`t wait until i`m older. and when i can drive. that`ll be neat. hooray♥.

i want contacts. i`m getting a little sick of my glasses. they piss me off, and they dig into my head. and they`re annoying, damnit.
jhkjerhlkdfg. kay, well i`m done rambling on about random shit.
so.. i`ll update again sometime. talk to you later, my lovelies!


2 // cmnt

Left to My Ambitions I Find Myself Feeling Short of Breath and Losing Hope Again. [8.29.04 @ 9:33pm]
[ mood | hot ]

it`s so hot in this house. it`s insane. the air is on, but i`m sweating.
double you tee eff? i`m kinda tired. Joe just left and we had, well, an interesting day.
we napped together today. [: hooray hooray ♥.Joe let me burn the Haste the Day CD yesterday. [: i love them so much.

i got the converge CD on friday. i went with [no name] to tower records. i was looking for still remains, but they didn`t have it. so, i looked for it dies today. guess what? they didn`t have it. tthheennn.. i looked for folly. and they didn`t have it. so that sucked ass. it dies today comes out with a new CD-september 21st. so, be prepared for that, bitches. ♥! so many good CD`s are coming out in september. gah.
-the Used.
-it Dies Today.
-Lamb of God.

yeah, and knowing me, i`ll be broke. so i won`t be able to get any of them.

oh well, i have to go put groceries away, my dads being a dick.
so, i`ll update again sooner or later.


2 // cmnt

It`s kind of Funny. This Lonely Feeling. I`m not in love. You know it`s Not Love. [8.27.04 @ 12:28pm]
[ mood | thoughtful ]

I`m getting my haircut tomorrow.
The haircut I want is below. Tell me what you think.

I like it a lot. But i don`t know if it`ll look right on me.
hmm? opinions? comments? ehh.. help me! ;x


5 // cmnt

Raise Your Fist in the Air, Drug Free.Cleanse Yourself.You Dont Need it, Despite What You May Think. [8.25.04 @ 1:14pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

okay, so, i haven`t updated in a while. so, i guess i will now. let`s see, nothing too interesting has been going on.
i almost passed out yesterday, fun stuff. I did all of the wash yesterday, and my dad gave me 20 bucks.
i think i`m gonna get the still remains CD. not sure yet. but most likely, that`s what i`m going to get.
my cousin is here, yet again. oh, the fun. i took so many pictures last night. i fell asleep for an hour, and woke up and i couldn`t get back to sleep. so i just took pictures. a lot. they`re under the cut below.

Pictures♥Collapse )

5 // cmnt

[8.19.04 @ 1:30pm]
Stole this from My Sister:

Name Four Bad Habits You Have:
- laziness.
- eating.
- going online.
- mm...i don't know.

Name Four Things That You Wish You Had:
- a billion dollars.
- happiness forever.
- a band.
- a different name.

Name Four Scents You Love:
- the smell after it rains.
- gasoline.
- cinnamon.
- laundry detergent.

Name Four People That Know You the Best:
- joe.
- alexis.
- nick.
- no one else.

Name Four Things You Are Thinking About Now:
- alexisonfire.
- joe.
- taking a bath.
- man, i'm bored.

Name Four Things That You Have Done Today:
- woke up.
- cleaned my face.
- brushed my teeth.
- got online. may i reinform you that it is only 1:51 PM.

Name the Last Four Things You Have Bought:
- french fries.
- face wash.
- eyeliner.
- pink eyeshadow.

Name Four Bands/Groups Most People Know You Like:
- Avenged Sevenfold.
- Atreyu.
- Alexisonfire. why do all of my favorite bands start with A's?
- Unearth.

Name Four Drinks You Regularly Drink:
- water.
- iced tea.
- orange juice.
- uhh..

First Grade Teacher's Name? Ms. Fine.
Last Words You Said? why?
Last Song You Sang? Alexisonfire - 'Kennedy Curse.'
Last Person You Hugged? Kristi.
Last Thing You Laughed At? Kristi.
Last Time You Said 'I Love You' And Meant It? Yesterday when Joe was over.
Last Time You Cried? It's been a few weeks.
What's In Your CD Player? Avenged Sevenfold, Don't Look Down, Alexisonfire, Atreyu, & Falling Cycle.
What Color Socks Are You Wearing? Black ankle socks.
What's Under Your Bed? Nothing.
What Time Did You Wake Up Today? 12:05.

Current Taste? nothing.
Current Hair? black. back in poofy ball things.
Current Clothes? a pair of boxers, and my don't look down shirt.
Current Annoyance? Nothing.
Current Longing? Uhh.
Current Desktop Picture? Avenged Sevenfold.
Current Worry? School.
Current Hate? Sluts.

[more random]
Favorite Physical Feature Of The Opposite Sex? eyes, and hair.
Last CD You Bought? Otep.
Favorite Place To Be? with Joe.
Least Favorite Place? near my older sister.
Time You Wake Up In The Morning? usually around 11 - 12ish.
If You Could Play An Instrument? I can play an instrument.. Guitar.
Favorite Color? Purple, Lime Green, and Hot Pink.
Do You Believe In An Afterlife? No.. when you die, you die. no inbetween.
How Tall Are You? 5'5"
Current Favorite Word/Saying? Uh.. I don't know. I say dude a lot.
Favorite Season? winter.
One Person From Your Past You Wish You Could Go Back And Talk To: Sarah. She was so cool.
Favorite Day? Saturday.
Where Would You Like To Go? California.
What Is Your Career Going To Be Like? Tattoo Artist/Piercer. funfunfun.
How Many Kids Do You Want? i don't really want kids. but i'll probably have maybe two.
A Random Lyric: "I Kill Myself, I'll Blow My Brains Onto The Wall, See You In Hell, I Will Not Take This Anymore, This Is Where It Ends, This Is Where I Draw The Line, Excuse Me While, I End My Life."
-Sentenced;Excuse Me While I Kill Myself.
Identify Some Of The Things Surrounding Your computer: Ipod, Scissors, My Glasses, Speakers, Books, Magazines, a DVD, Computer Games, Blank CDs, Pens, and a Notepad.

Everything You Said is Coming Back in Time. Well Maybe I Should Say Goodbye. [8.19.04 @ 2:58am]
[ mood | bored ]

i had an okay day today. i'll write about it later though.
but for now, a survey. hooray hooray. ♥

001) What time are you starting this?: 2:21 AM. what the fuck? what am i still doing up? insomnia, i tell you.
002) Name?: michelle.
003) Date of birth?: october 24th.
004) Sex?: female.
005) Height?: 5'5"
006) Eye color?: hazel.
007) Weight?: 110.
008) Location?: philadelphia, pa.
009) Where were you born?: philadelphia, pa.
010) Have you ever failed a grade?: nope.
011) If you have, what grade did you fail? n/a.
012) Do you have crush on someone?: my boyfriend?
013) Do you have a bf/gf?: yes.
014) If so, what is their name: joe♥.
015) How long have you been together?: a little over four months.
016) What are you wearing right now?: don't look down shirt, pj pants.
017) Would you have sex before marriage?: depends.
018) Have you ever had a crush on any of your teachers?: yes.. Mr. Haws.
020) Do you smoke?: no.
021) Do you drink?: no.
022) Are you ghetto?: yes. fo' sho'.
023) Are you a player?: hell yeah.
024) What are your favorite colors?: purple, lime green, hot pink. yay.
025) What is your favorite animal?: bunnies.
026) Do you have any birthmarks?: yes. but it's hidden by my hair. ;P
027) Have you ever gotten your ass kicked?: nope.
028) Who are your best friends? (girls) alexis, & katie. (guys) joe, bill, and zack.
029) Have you ever beat someone up? yes. the last time i fought someone was in 6th grade. it was fun.
030) Who do you talk to most on the phone?: joe.
031) Have you ever been slapped?: sure.
032) Do you get online a lot?: yes.
033) Are you shy or outgoing?: shy around people i don't know. but i'm pretty much outgoing most of the time.
034) Do you shower?: yes. haha. what kind of question is that?
035) Do you hate school?: yes. thank god for summer.
036) Do you have a social life?: sure, why not.
037) How easily do you trust people? not very easily. i only trust three people in my life right now.
joe, alexis, and my mom. haha.
038) Have you ever lied to your best friends?: i think so.
039) Do you have a secret people would be surprised knowing?: Yes.
040) Would you ever sky dive?: Yes.
041) Do you like to dance?: yes. hxc style. hahah.
068) Have you ever been out of state?: yes.
069) Do you like to travel?: yes. it's fun.
070) Have you ever been expelled from school?: no.
071) Have you ever been suspended from school?: no.
071) Do you want to get out of your hometown?: yes, i'm moving to california when i get older.
072) Are you spoiled?: no.
073) Are you a brat?: no.
074) Have you ever been dumped?: Yes.
075) Have you ever gotten high?: no.
076) What's your favorite drink?: water.
077) Do you like Snapple?: Yes.
078) Do you drink a lot of water?: Yes.
079) What toothpaste do you use?: Crest.
080) Do you have a cell phone or pager?: i used to.
081) Do you have a curfew?: no, my parents usually just give me a time.
082) Who do you look up to?: no one, actually.
083) Are you a role model?: sure.
085) What name brand do you wear the most?: i don't really care about brand names.
086) What kind of jewelry do you wear?: uh.. lip ring, a bracelet, necklace, and 3 rings.
087) What do you have pierced?: 2 holes in each ear, and my lip.
088) What do you want pierced?: monroe.
089) Do you like taking pictures?: when i'm bored.
090) Do you like getting your picture taken?: no.
091) Do you have a tan?: yes, i just recently got one. :D
092) Do you get annoyed easily?: no.
093) Have you ever started a rumor?: mm.. i don't think so.
094) Do you have your own phone/phone line?: no.
095) Do you have your own pool?: a blow up one. ;D yay.
096) Do you have any siblings?: yes. 2 sisters and a brother.
097) Do you prefer boxers or briefs?: i don't wear either of them. but uh.. on my 'significant other' i prefer boxers.
098) Have you ever been played? uh. i don't know.
099) Have you ever played anyone?: what exactly does 'played' mean?
100) Do you get along with your parents?: sometimes.
102) How do you vent your anger?: scream, break stuff. haha.
103) Have you ever run away?: sorta. only for like four hours though.
104) Have you ever been fired from a job?: no.
105) Do you even have a job?: not really. i work with my mother sometimes.
106) Do you daydream a lot?: yes.
107) Do you have a lot of exes?: sadly, yes.
108) Do you run your mouth?: no.
109) What do you want a tattoo of?: a heart with pins going through it, on my side, below my stomach. and a thing that goes around my wrist which is a whole bunch of different stuff, like: stars, music notes, ect.
110) What do you have a tattoo of?: none yet.
111) What are your favorite flowers?: daisies.
112) What does your ex bf/gf look like?: haha. retarded now that i think about it.
113) What does your most recent crush look like?: pretty. ;D
114) Have you ever been bitched out?: bitched out means what exactly?
115) When was the last time you bitched someone out?: what the hell, man.
116) Are you rude? no, never.
117) What was the last compliment you received?: today. joe called me beautiful. :blush: :)
118) Do you like getting dirty?: uh.
119) Is your bellybutton an innie or outie?: it's a mixture of both. woah.
120) Are you flexible?: not really.
121) What is your heritage?: irish, hungarian, and some other stuff.
122) What is your lucky number?: nine.
123) What does your hair look like right now?: down and poofy. fun.
124) Could you ever be a vegetarian?: ehh. i don't like meat.
125) When was your last real heartbreak?: last year.
126) Describe your looks?: uh.. i have black short hair, i wear 'emo' glasses.
127) If you had to completely dye your hair it'd be what color?: uh.. black?
128) Would you ever date someone younger than you?: sure why not.
129) Would you ever date someone older than you?: yeah. not too old though.
130) When was the last time you were drunk?: uh like 2 years ago.
131) When was the last time you went on a date?: woah. like last year.
135) Have you ever had an eating disorder?: no.
136) Do you have one now?: no.
137) How many rings until you answer the phone?: three.
138) Have you ever been skinny dipping?: yes.
139) If yes, when was the last time?: umm.. last year.. haha.
140) Do you look more like your mother or father?: mom.
141) Do you cry a lot?: not really.
142) Do you ever cry to get your way?: not really.
143) If you had to amputate one limb, what would it be?: uh. none?
144) What phrase do you use most when on the phone?: hello?
145) Are you the romantic type?: yes. i'm a sucker when it comes to romance.♥
146) Have you ever been chased by cops?: haha. yeah.
147) What do you like most about your body?: nothing.
148) What do you like least about your body?: my face.
150) When was the last time you threw up?: mm.. a few months ago.
151) In the opposite sex, do you prefer blondes or brunettes?: brunettes or black hair please.
152) What do the shoes you last wore look like?: red low rise chucks.
153) Do you ever wear shirts to show your belly?: no.
154) What about cleavage?: no.
155) Is your best friend a virgin?: yes.
158) What color are your underwear right now?: orange.
159) What theme does your room have?: nature. i guess. my ceiling is clouds and stars.
160) What size shoe do you wear?: guys; 5. girls; 7.
161) What jewelry are you wearing now?: lip ring, necklace, and one ring.
162) What is your screen name on AIM?: i have too many. but i'm usually on ixletterstoyouxi
163) Would you pick a wedgie in public?: yes. who cares?
164) How are you feeling right now?: bored, and tired.
165) When was the last time you were at a party?: a few months ago.
166) Have you ever given a lapdance?: no.
167) What do you sleep in?: pjs, or bra and undies.
168) Has there ever been a rumor spread about you?: not that i know of.
171) Would you marry for money?: no.
172) What do you drive?: used to be a skateboard. but i hate skating now.
173) Have you ever given or received roadhead?: oh yeah. all the time.. hahah.
174) Are you more of a mama or daddy's child?: mom. my dads a loser.
177) When was the last time you cried in school?: 8th grade. oh man. people
179) For two million dollars, would you pose for Playboy?: would i have to be fully naked?
180) What time are you finishing this?: 2:54 AM.



Forever Your Eyes Will Hold The Memory. I Saw Your Heart. As It Overtook Me. [8.18.04 @ 2:34am]
[ mood | sick ]

hello everyone. sorry i've been lacking in updates.
Alexis slept over my house last night. Yesterday was pretty fun actually. We didn't really do anything.
She came over at around 3ish. And we sat in and were online until around 5, because I had to watch my little brother.
Bill, Mike, and Dan knocked for us. And we walked around with them. We went to the Cemetary and sat in there.. Oh my, we're so hardcore. No, actually it was really lame, and there was no where else to go.
We walked around for a while and then we just stopped in front of Wawa. And sat there for a good four hours. People were staring at us like we were lunatics. Now, it was Me(of course), Alexis, Bill, Dan, Jim, Mike, Kristi, Jess, Roseanne, and I think that's it? I don't know. But.. It was really funny.
Some 25 year old guy came up to us and started talking to us like we were his best friend. And he just randomly looked at me and we had like a conversation. it was weird.

guy: "You're so cute. How old are You?"
me: "Um.. 14?"
guy: "Really? You look older."
me: "Yeah, everyone thinks that."
guy: "When is your birthday?"
me: "Uh.. October 24th."
guy: "I wish you were older."
me: :laughs: "okay.."
guy: "if only you were 15, i'd ask you to go to the bar, or get something to eat. Would you want to?"
me: "Sure."
guy: :laughs: "I bet you're the only one here without a boyfriend."
me: "Oh, no, I have a boyfriend actually."
guy: "Oh really? I'm sorry. I actually have a fiancee and some kids."

That's when I turned around and started talking to Alexis. haha. Then he was talking about how he was going to kill all the black people in my neighborhood so we could live peacefully. i don't know. it was odd. and he was scaring me. When he left he looked at me one last time and said I was so cute, yet again.
Haha, he was so scary. Then Alexis and I left at 9:30. We watched Party Monster and Eurotrip.
Two awesome movies may I add. Alexis was doing the California Rush thingy, where you hold you breath for a really long time and pass out. She did it and it looked like she had a seizure, and she thought I was hitting her. haha, she woke up after 5 seconds and yelled, "DUDE! STOP HITTING ME!" and i was far away from her. and it was really funny. hahah. We finally went to sleep at around 3:30-4ish. I woke up at 11:45ish, and got online. she was still sleeping, she woke up at 12:30. We got dressed and showered and everything, and Joe came over at 4. we all walked around the neighborhood for a good hour. (my life is so eventful, isn't it?) and we went back to my house and got money for drinks. we went to 711. and got drinks. we went back and watched Party Monster in my basement. Joe was freaked out by all the gayness in that movie, but it's okay, 'cause Macaulay Culkin is so sexy in that movie. :] then alexis went home. :(
and me and joe hung out and watched tv in my basement until he left at 9. and now i'm here by myself. bored. but it's okay. sorry this update was retarded, and there was really no point. haha.
i feel like crap now, I think Alexis gave me her disease. she had ammonia. or. something. i think i'm gonna go take some medicine. See ya.


Some Quotes From Party Monster:
-"I'm just like a balloon.. if someone isn't there to hold my string. I'll float away."
-"Oh, no thanks. i don't do drugs."
"neither do i! did you see that? it just flew right up my nose!"
-"I'm not addicted to drugs, I'm addicted to glamour."
-"Is it true your son gave you ecstasy pills?"
"He told me it was a headache pill."
"And what happened when you took it?"
"Well, my headache went away."
-"You're just some lame-ass, Johnny-come-lately, fairy, faggot, copycat! You don't even know your skrink from your skrod! You stupid logger blogger!"

2 // cmnt

[8.14.04 @ 10:19pm]
[ mood | sleepy ]

1) Using band names, spell out your name

M - Most Precious Blood.
I - It Dies Today.
C - Circle Takes the Square.
H - Haste the Day.
E - Every Time I Die.
L - Lamb of God.
L - Letter Kills.
E - Embrace the End.

2) Have you ever had a song written about you? Yes.
3) What song makes you cry? "the Rememberance Ballad" - Atreyu.
4) What song makes you happy? "Lips of Deceit" - Avenged Sevenfold.
5) What do you like to listen to before bed? Avenged Sevenfold.

a p p e a r a n c e
HEIGHT: 5`5"
SKIN COLOR: Pale, But I just got a good tan. ;D
EYE COLOR: Hazel, or brown. they change.
PIERCINGS: 5. 2 in each ear, all gauged out to a 0. and my lip, which is a 14.
TATTOOS: soon.

r i g h t n o w
WHAT SONG ARE YOU LISTENING TO?: From a Second Story Window - "I Tried Voodoo Once.."

d o y o u
HAVE A BAD HABIT?: When I'm nervous, I always play with my gauges, or my lip ring.
GET ALONG WITH YOUR PARENTS?: Sometimes. Most of the time? No.
LIKE TO DRIVE?: I'm too young, Damnit.

f a v o r i t e s
TV SHOW: I don't really watch TV.
CONDITIONER: Herbal Essences.
BOOK: a Clockwork Orange.
MAGAZINE: Guitar World.
THING TO DO ON THE WEEKEND: Hang out with my friends, or Joe♥
BAND OR GROUP or SINGER or RAPPER: a7x, or atreyu. it's a tie.

h a v e y o u
SNUCK OUT OF THE HOUSE: no. i'm not rebellious like that.
EVER TIPPED OVER A PORTA POTTY: not recently. haha.
USED YOUR PARENTS' CREDIT CARD BEFORE: with their permission? yes.
SKIPPED SCHOOL BEFORE: no. like i said, i'm not rebellious enough.

l o v e
BOYFRIEND: Joe. ♥ i Love you.
SEXUALITY: Straight.
CURRENT CRUSH: Joe, of course.
BEEN IN LOVE?: Yes. I am right now. ♥♥♥
BEEN HURT?: Yes. a lot.
YOUR GREATEST REGRET: Going out with some of the guys that i did in the past.

r a n d o m
YOUR CD PLAYER HAS IN IT RIGHT NOW: As i Lay Dying, a7x, from first to last, hawthorne heights, & Himsa.

1 // cmnt

Bodies Burned, and Scratched. Everything is Dead. Every Day is Black. [8.11.04 @ 9:48pm]
[ mood | lonely ]

hello everyone, today was rather interesting.
Joe came over at around 2ish. and we just hung out the whole time,
and burned some CD's. He was getting mad at me though,
because i was making fun of him, and staring at him the whole time.
i'm sorry joe. :(
he had to leave early so i could go take my tests.
i got a 70, and a 100. go me. oh well, at least i passed.

my dad bought me the new otep CD from online.
it's really good, i must say. ;D

i'm really bored right now, and i miss joe.
i hope i see him tomorrow. i hate not being with him..
it makes me sad.. and i'm really lonely right now. :(

well i think that's it for this update.
i'll update soon. byebye.


1 // cmnt

Your Words are Deadly Weapons. Killing Me, Destroying Me. Scatter My Brains Across the Wall. [8.9.04 @ 9:51am]
New Layout. New Icon. Oh yeah. I'm sort of happy with this Layout, I don't know, I'll keep it for a while.
I <3 the icon. *the lead singer of from first to last - oh yeah, i met him and you didn't* he was a sexy beast.
;D he's so small, and adorable. you just want to eat him up. hooray. well, it's really early. and i've been up cleaning all morning.
I think Joe is coming over later, which is cool, 'cause I didn't see him at all yesterday. I missed him =( Oh well.

My sun burn kills. I hope I start peeling soon. I hate sun burn! fgljkhdlkfjhg.

Well, i'm gonna go and clean some more. I'll update again soon. Bye.


[ mood | exhausted ]

I just got home from the Warped Tour.
dude, a7x was awesome, and underoath as well.
I also saw from first to last, they kicked ass too.
I saw underminded for the first time, they were fucking awesome,
so awesome, that they gave me and joe goosebumps. the lead singer was sort of mean though.
Oh well, it's all good. They still kicked major fucking ass. WAHOO!
whatwhat. i'm so fucking sun burned. ow. it hurts.
i put some aloe gel on it.. hopefully that'll help.
my fucking god. it hurts. eep. =(
i'm so fucking tired. so i think i'm gonna go to bed now.
i'm going to hershey park tomorrow with joe. fuck yeah.
well.. i'll update sooner or later. byes.


What Is Your Best Sexual Skill?
Flirting Skill Level - 97%
Kissing Skill Level - 68%
Cudding Skill Level - 27%
Sex Skill Level - 30%
Why They Love You You are wet and wild.
Why They Hate You You take more than you give.
This fun quiz by lady_wintermoon - Taken 482876 Times.
New - COOL Dating Tips and Romance Advice!

um, yeah, i got bored, bitch.

Mark These Words, We Will Rise. [8.1.04 @ 7:04pm]
[ mood | gloomy ]

I feel like crap today. I changed the layout. It's kind of gay. I'm not very happy with it.
I'll be changing it soon, most likely. I've been doing a shit load of reading, summer reading that is.
I'm trying to get it all done and over with. All three books are supposed to be read, and tests should be taken by August 12th. Hopefully I'll be all done. I just got done my 2nd book. I plan on starting the 3rd a little later today.
I'm going to Hershey park on Saturday. Joe is going, I think. Not sure. I took a whole bunch of Pictures yesterday.
There all in my PhotoBucket thing. I got bored. hah. Hmm.. So. I don't know what else to write about,
so i guess this is my update. Later. <3 Mish.

4 // cmnt

[7.31.04 @ 3:05am]
enslave my heart, revealed is her apathy.
I'm bounded by a fear of loneliness,
show me fidelity now fill me with a false sense of hope,
this will be reminder of what we once were.
I'll leave your lips soaked with remnants of a love held together by deception.
and death is masked as my savior.
martyrd in you a heartless name.
the detriment was much too profound for you
to mend my wounds sweetly with your blackened kiss,
my heart you've bled it dry.
you could mean the world to me nothing less throughout eternity.
you're the end of the world to me.
a beautiful contradiction possessing me.
I can give you no more than all the love I have.
take it with you wherever your heart shall lead you.
this is the requiem for broke hearts and empty promises,
with weary steps I will press on no longer,
now watch as the blade cuts through my skin,
and this blood will forever rain up on your guiltless head,
could you hold this close to your heart forever...forever?
Will you hold this close to your heart forever and always.
or will you bathe in my blood forever and always?


"Who Can Tell Me What Happens When My Eyes Close For The Last time?" [7.25.04 @ 12:13am]
[ mood | depressed ]

today sucked. i didn't see joe. and i miss him. a lot.
ARGH! lkdfjgldkfjg. i feel like crap.
i went to King of Prussia mall today, the people hate me there.
they think i'm evil or something. just because i have my lip pierced.
oh well. i got my glasses fixed today, and i got new sneakers.
red chucks <3 dead sexy. my cousin is here. and i really feel like commiting suicide. she's annoying, i punched her in the face before, she has a HUGE attitude problem. and she's immature. Ok, listen up, she's fucking 13, and is hanging out with my 8 year old brother. what the fuck, dude? grow the fuck up. she doesn't have any friends, and i don't blame people not wanting to be her friend, due to her bitchy ass fucking attitude. GAH.

hopefully, i'll see Joe tomorrow. i miss him terribly. ='(
blah. i have a lot of reading to do too, things are so stressful.
i have exams coming up, and everything is just shitty.

well, i'm gonna go now. see ya.
<3 Mish.


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